Coming Clean The Ramblings Of A Writer

Hi everyone. Happiness to you.

I've decided to be completely open and honest with you all in my blog. Not just post poetry but also updates on how I'm holding up and of course how my son is.

The blog is my own way to help myself self-heal. I was raped multiple times by more than one person and as you can imagine, it's really caused some PTSD, trauma, anxiety and so much more. I have previously said that I thought I was suppose to be a writer already in this lifetime. But all that mental anguish and pain and guilt was causing me to suppress my writing ability. I had a complete block. (I do my best writing when I'm wrapped up in my pain and I didn't want to feel anything and I definitely didn't want to relive it. So I stopped, Stopped feeling. Stopped Writing.)

But then one day I decided I was going to try to start manifesting happiness and joy instead of always losing out to the trauma and endless nightmares. And so...I got out my notebook and starting writing...and my healing truly began.

I'm crying while I write this but it's a good cry. A healthy cry. And although I was most definitely the victim, I'm choosing to stop acting like one. No more self-loathing. No more guilt because I was ashamed and scared and didn't go to the police and just excepted it as if it were my fate. My lot in life.

No. I choose to be strong now. And I thank you. For allowing me to share this. Thank you for joining me on my healing journey.

Love, Light, Laughter and of course Poetry,

Eryn Dunbar